I made myself promise that this year I wouldn’t cry when the kids left for school.  You would think I would be used to the idea that the house is going to be quiet.  The dogs are going to walk around wondering where the action is……  You would even think that after a couple of months with the kids under my feet begging to do something cuz they’re bored…..I would actually enjoy the peace and quiet……

((sigh))  Each and every year, when I get home from the crazy parents-dropping-off-their-kids-at-school hour, I sit down and cry.  This year, I thought to myself, that I am a big girl now and there is no reason to cry…..ahem…..well…. the pile of tissues on the floor tell a different story.

I hate to admit it but I am just a big old cry baby.  I miss them terribly.  They have been gone now for 2 hours and I am wondering what they are doing.  Are they okay?  Did their butterflies settle down?  I hope I packed a good enough lunch.  Will they find the nearest bathroom alright?  There better not be a soul pick on my babies…… With every thought a tear is shed…. this year was no different.

This year will be different…..I won’t be able to be at the school at a drop of a hat.  I’ve gone back to work….part time…. doing something I love…..working with rescued animals…. but as I sit here thinking about my kids day, I have to get ready for my day…..AND that saddens me……I keep wondering….what if they need me?  What if I can’t get away from work?  What if something happens and I can’t be there?  What if????  What if???? What if????

Now the tears are really streaming down my face.  ((sniff sniff))

Note to self….Okay Regina, wipe the snot off your face and get on your knees.  Pray right now that God settles the worries and remember His promise to be by your side and YOUR KIDS sides.  You ask God to bless their first day and stop this pity party right now!!!

I don’t want to be late for work so I guess I better start praying…. enjoy your day!!

God Bless…….

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